"I could make this an elsewhere / And close my eyes / You don't need to love me /Just to get by..."
The disconnections, the surreal Twilight Zone revelations of "Darkness Of Heart" by Portland's The Fourth Wall may be steeped in being the other in a society who doesn't have a track record of accepting those who don't look or think like them but sonically / lyrically the collision of emotional tissue, connecting and ripping apart can feel tender one moment and like a horror movie the next, like a Jordan Peele movie. The band The Fourth Wall manifests dark and light theatrics from Stephen Agustin's stories, ones that come from hard places sometimes from hidden truths. These truths form the crux of The Fourth Wall's exquisitely personal album "Return Forever" and here is where I drop in some LINER NOTES because they are so important.
LINER NOTES (bracketed):
[What is the price we pay for joy, and is it worth it? The thread of this question runs taut through The Fourth Wall’s upcoming collection, Return Forever, a fever dream of a record that unearths unresolved complexities of the immigrant experience in nine chapters. Throughout the album, songwriter Stephen Agustin circles a fire that feels so bright and yet so unknowable; there are not many answers to be found, only a disruption, the emergence of a world seen with new eyes.]
[Return Forever was first inspired by a moment in Agustin’s family history in which he learned that a close relative had left behind a young daughter when she moved to the United States, turning away from her past life and creating one anew. Shocked though he was, Agustin soon became fascinated with the idea of the “poetry of forgetfulness.”]
[“There was almost a way in which the impulse to revise or destroy history became a condition for achieving this joyous state,” he says. It was a theme he would begin to see over and over again: in the way he saw immigrant families assimilating into the United States, or in the way he saw his own parents—who were from Korea and the Philippines—harbor so little resentment towards America despite the traumatic history of war and colonization it has with those countries. Lush, cinematic, and bold, The Fourth Wall paints the paradox of the exchange of joy for memory so perfectly. Driven by Agustin’s mastery of electric guitar soundscapes and the distorted, impassioned harmonies he shares with the band’s newest member Kendall Sallay, Return Forever is a journey that somehow captures the unfathomable. It is hair-raising, powerful, and gorgeous.]
[What is the price we pay for joy, and is it worth it? The thread of this question runs taut through The Fourth Wall’s upcoming collection, Return Forever, a fever dream of a record that unearths unresolved complexities of the immigrant experience in nine chapters. Throughout the album, songwriter Stephen Agustin circles a fire that feels so bright and yet so unknowable; there are not many answers to be found, only a disruption, the emergence of a world seen with new eyes.]
[Return Forever was first inspired by a moment in Agustin’s family history in which he learned that a close relative had left behind a young daughter when she moved to the United States, turning away from her past life and creating one anew. Shocked though he was, Agustin soon became fascinated with the idea of the “poetry of forgetfulness.”]
[“There was almost a way in which the impulse to revise or destroy history became a condition for achieving this joyous state,” he says. It was a theme he would begin to see over and over again: in the way he saw immigrant families assimilating into the United States, or in the way he saw his own parents—who were from Korea and the Philippines—harbor so little resentment towards America despite the traumatic history of war and colonization it has with those countries. Lush, cinematic, and bold, The Fourth Wall paints the paradox of the exchange of joy for memory so perfectly. Driven by Agustin’s mastery of electric guitar soundscapes and the distorted, impassioned harmonies he shares with the band’s newest member Kendall Sallay, Return Forever is a journey that somehow captures the unfathomable. It is hair-raising, powerful, and gorgeous.]
The immigrant stories are many. My parent's, one Dutch, one Indonesian, immigrated to America when I was 3 year old and while no one was left behind, in some ways everything was left behind. The sense of belonging, a fruitful high paying job, a fancy home with servants to help with the children, etc. While I won't tell my story, I think a lot of immigrant stories are filled with stories of feeling like the other for a long time.
MORE LINER NOTES:
["In Darkness of Heart", Agustin imagines the creation of a new world at the expense of the old. Inspired by Joseph Conrad’s “Heart of Darkness,” Agustin reverses the roles of colonialism and allows the 'other' to infiltrate and assimilate into the ‘civilized’ world, only to find that the endings are not dissimilar; something akin to madness awaits. “From this thought exercise came a character who experiences a disillusionment with the American dream.” Agustin says. “They are in a romance-less relationship, have converted to Christianity, and have been cleansed of their past, so to speak. They wonder if their investment in the American dream might resurrect some of the horrors that caused their flight in the first place.” The opening of the song is soft, a narrator gently urging their new world into being: “I could make this an elsewhere / and close my eyes / you don’t need to love me / just to get by.” As the uncertainty creeps in, the refrain delivers us into a release of electric guitars and pounding drums. The escape from the past becomes futile, the ghosts re-surface, the cycle begins again: “I can never tell / if I repeat what I repel / become the heart of darkness to quell / the darkness just to start it all again.” And indeed, the song ends with a return to the beginning, a map that reflects the repetition of history, as Agustin puts it, “the haunting pleasure of a new world coming into being.”]
[“My family history has always come to me in fragments and I’ve had the sense that there will always be an irreducible remainder that I will never have access to.” Agustin says. “I became interested in how this unintelligible past affects notions of my own identity.” In some ways, the record feels like a quest for this “irreducible remainder,” one that is futile by nature, but allows The Fourth Wall the opportunity to uncover so many stories that we should be listening to in modern day America. The record’s haunting opening, “Interrupts the Dream” zeroes in on the uncomfortable truths that were revealed at the height of pressurized xenophobia. “Only the Joy,” celebrates the tenderness of a mother who leaves her child to a more joyous life that doesn’t include her. Return Forever holds the darkness and the light together, until it is unclear where one ends and the other begins. Perhaps that is the only knowable truth.]
["In Darkness of Heart", Agustin imagines the creation of a new world at the expense of the old. Inspired by Joseph Conrad’s “Heart of Darkness,” Agustin reverses the roles of colonialism and allows the 'other' to infiltrate and assimilate into the ‘civilized’ world, only to find that the endings are not dissimilar; something akin to madness awaits. “From this thought exercise came a character who experiences a disillusionment with the American dream.” Agustin says. “They are in a romance-less relationship, have converted to Christianity, and have been cleansed of their past, so to speak. They wonder if their investment in the American dream might resurrect some of the horrors that caused their flight in the first place.” The opening of the song is soft, a narrator gently urging their new world into being: “I could make this an elsewhere / and close my eyes / you don’t need to love me / just to get by.” As the uncertainty creeps in, the refrain delivers us into a release of electric guitars and pounding drums. The escape from the past becomes futile, the ghosts re-surface, the cycle begins again: “I can never tell / if I repeat what I repel / become the heart of darkness to quell / the darkness just to start it all again.” And indeed, the song ends with a return to the beginning, a map that reflects the repetition of history, as Agustin puts it, “the haunting pleasure of a new world coming into being.”]
[“My family history has always come to me in fragments and I’ve had the sense that there will always be an irreducible remainder that I will never have access to.” Agustin says. “I became interested in how this unintelligible past affects notions of my own identity.” In some ways, the record feels like a quest for this “irreducible remainder,” one that is futile by nature, but allows The Fourth Wall the opportunity to uncover so many stories that we should be listening to in modern day America. The record’s haunting opening, “Interrupts the Dream” zeroes in on the uncomfortable truths that were revealed at the height of pressurized xenophobia. “Only the Joy,” celebrates the tenderness of a mother who leaves her child to a more joyous life that doesn’t include her. Return Forever holds the darkness and the light together, until it is unclear where one ends and the other begins. Perhaps that is the only knowable truth.]
I love how The Fourth Wall sounds, I have covered them before. The personal confessional sensibilities, the edging sorrow and resulting sense of survivorship sticks with you. Sonically, stylistically there is a kind of late 90's / 2000's feel to me, emo melancholia and blendo indie rock musicality in tandem like an amalgam of Elliot Smith and "Los Campesinos!".
Music that is cathartic for it's creators are equally so for us listeners. I mean even if our pasts are different, emotions through art always transcends our barriers, at least if we let them.
When the light comes through the window
And ricochets
Off of your shoulder blades
And constellates
A new map of the cosmos
A new world at risk
Too near to be a fantasy
Too far to exist
And ricochets
Off of your shoulder blades
And constellates
A new map of the cosmos
A new world at risk
Too near to be a fantasy
Too far to exist
-Robb Donker Curtius
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What is the price we pay for joy, and is it worth it? The thread of this question runs taut through The Fourth Wall’s upcoming collection, Return Forever, a fever dream of a record that unearths unresolved complexities of the immigrant experience in nine chapters. Throughout the album, songwriter Stephen Agustin circles a fire that feels so bright and yet so unknowable; there are not many answers to be found, only a disruption, the emergence of a world seen with new eyes.
Return Forever was first inspired by a moment in Agustin’s family history in which he learned that a close relative had left behind a young daughter when she moved to the United States, turning away from her past life and creating one anew. Shocked though he was, Agustin soon became fascinated with the idea of the “poetry of forgetfulness.”
“There was almost a way in which the impulse to revise or destroy history became a condition for achieving this joyous state,” he says. It was a theme he would begin to see over and over again: in the way he saw immigrant families assimilating into the United States, or in the way he saw his own parents—who were from Korea and the Philippines—harbor so little resentment towards America despite the traumatic history of war and colonization it has with those countries. Lush, cinematic, and bold, The Fourth Wall paints the paradox of the exchange of joy for memory so perfectly. Driven by Agustin’s mastery of electric guitar soundscapes and the distorted, impassioned harmonies he shares with the band’s newest member Kendall Sallay, Return Forever is a journey that somehow captures the unfathomable. It is hair-raising, powerful, and gorgeous.
Agustin first begins to explore the loss that comes with erasure in Never A Part, a beautiful, frustrated conversation he imagines between his grandmother and her grandson. “I began to have questions about what the family connection really means,” Agustin says of his relationship with his grandmother. “What does it mean to ‘love’ a person merely because of their biological ties, without knowledge of the person’s aspirations, personality, style of humor, moral concerns?” The emotion is palpable in the music, in the acceptance of this almost divine mystery of unconditional love: “Won’t you hold me close / so I can rest assured / That there’s no words to say / that undoes all the hurt / or time enough to learn / why my love for you returns.” Still, in the song’s uneasy refrain, a shadow blooms within the irreconcilable distance that exists between grandmother and grandson, separated by time, language, and culture: the deep wells of love and loss that underlie the immigrant experience. “We’ll never be a part of whatever they are.”
“My family history has always come to me in fragments and I’ve had the sense that there will always be an irreducible remainder that I will never have access to.” Agustin says. “I became interested in how this unintelligible past affects notions of my own identity.” In some ways, the record feels like a quest for this “irreducible remainder,” one that is futile by nature, but allows The Fourth Wall the opportunity to uncover so many stories that we should be listening to in modern day America. The record’s haunting opening, “Interrupts the Dream” zeroes in on the uncomfortable truths that were revealed at the height of pressurized xenophobia. “Only the Joy,” celebrates the tenderness of a mother who leaves her child to a more joyous life that doesn’t include her. Return Forever holds the darkness and the light together, until it is unclear where one ends and the other begins. Perhaps that is the only knowable truth.
Stephen Agustin grew up in Oahu, and was ten years old when his musician father took him to a B.B. King concert. He quickly thereafter begged his parents for a guitar and soon started forming bands with his middle school friends. He played in various projects until the formation of The Fourth Wall, and eventually moved to Portland where the band continued to find a growing audience while opening for acts such as The Shins, Andrew Bird, Menomena, Band of Horses, and Typhoon. The Fourth Wall self-recorded Return Forever, beginning with recordings Agustin made in isolation during the pandemic. The record features Kasey Shun, Chris Lau, Kendall Sallay, and Andrew White. It is slated for release in 2024 on DevilDuck Records.
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